He has made everything beautiful in its time Ecc 3:11. This is one of the verses I have been pondering for some time. And it so happens that this appears again in the very first line in Uncle Richard’s Nov update in the church bulletin today. Is this a coincidence? Well I believe, again, God has made everything beautiful in his time, at His very right time.
Remembering when Kian Aun and other members in church start “trapping” me into ministries and how persistent they kept asking me to attend certain meetings as well as coaxing me into taking small roles, bit by bit. Not forgetting the ever so supportive soul mate, friend and lover, Ricky. And before I knew it, I already get involved in so many of them…youth, Sunday school, young working adults, children ministries and special events. I was open to take up roles but there were times I complained…for having approached for tasks…the pressures that followed, well not so much from those that gave me jobs but I figured out it was just me…
The Young Working Adults the cluster that I love most. Ricky and I somehow committed ourselves to make it a point to attend the meetings every Monday evening. Of course there were some misses too =). Very soon after that our dear Dr. Yeoh “put me on the table” filling in my name as a small group leader. I wouldn’t lie that I was all confident for that role. I was always questioning if I have already known the bible well or will I be able to lead my fellow group mates into good discussions and will I be committed enough to prepare the lessons well. Well, God again has lined up all things beautifully in His time. It was not that my level of biblical knowledge suddenly bloomed nor my courage to lead was perfected. It was the people, the members of YWA who had been so supportive, praying and upholding me all thru those days. A big thank you and a big hug to all of them.
Youths…I could only identify FEAR. Fear of not knowing how to communicate with the younger ones, fear that I could not set a good example to them, fear of not knowing the right way to lead them and fear of being unacknowledged. There was just so much fear in me that I couldn’t open up myself to accept things then and I chose to ignore and avoid. Weird but true enough, I started to miss them already even before I leave for down south at this moment. Thanx to the opportunities to take part in the Sunday School as a small group leader, a Care Group facilitator and the coordinator for the upcoming Children’s Camp. I can feel good rapport started to build up from these few activities and I am thankful that I have Kian Aun, Wan Li, Uncle William, Ricky and others who believed in me and prayed for me.
God will make a way, where there seems to be no way.
He works in way we cannot see, He will make a way for me.
He will be my guide, hold me closely to his side.
With love and strength for each new day,
He will make a way, He will make a way.
Lyrics by Don Moen.
I am thankful for this year. As I am leaving for a new chapter in life, there were farewells organised by friends and family. There were people who came near and gave me warm hugs, best wishes, prayers and blessings. These small gestures just simply warmed my heart. What a great way He has chosen to remind me, no matter how little I gave it counts. No matter how small I am, I made a difference. Without this decision to leave, how would I know He loves me this much and sent all these angels to guide and uphold me all these days.
This year around I made a lot of decisions…some are foolish ones, some I would gladly be proud of. Although year end is 32 days too early but this is my way of biding 2010 farewell. How about you?
This is my message.